Side Effects

While thinking in circles
I'm saying your name
Once, twice...
And then I smile again.
I'm repeating words
to a song that you like.
And if only you knew
how much that isn't like me.

The butterflies have risen
Welling into my chest
Its hard to breathe...
But in a way that fits best.
I can't get your picture
right out of my head.
And if only you knew
how much that isn't like me.

Im looking forward,
and counting down.
For just a moment
on that saferground.
I'm missing every
moment that goes.
And if only you knew
how much that isn't like me.

If only.