Bring Me Back To This.

Behind clear eyes. Under soft touch.
That amazing smile,
what does it house?

Breathing in an endless coma. Reaching for a fleeting image. Open your throat and allow the warmth to break your veins. I'll become the pill. You can digest me. Whatever helps you swallow thruth all the more easily. You magnify my better half; the side of myself that I love and wear. But what of you can I magnify of you if you don't find it within yourself? The reason you still ride was spilled underground a long time ago. You can't run free, can you? No matter how far out you get, I see you pulling yourself back in. Or maybe something terrible forces you to turn back. Can you not be the deciding force and break from this dance? End the movement of mar that so injures the frame. Who became the enemy? Nothing. I know. The notion sits like a razor to me. The outer strain, the inner abrasion... peel your eyes from the soil and see the sky. Stop prodding your brain for an answer and let the porcelain ice over again. He is reflected in you, so why do you not see it? Everything starts somewhere, but this ends here. I can't act. I can't stop. I can't feel. I have no say in it, but He does. It remains between the two of you, I get it. It makes perfect sense. But pray... yeah, I'm going to pray. Change is inevitable. For you. And for all of us.


Maybe I am where I don't belong. Maybe I cross lines that were meant to be fences. And I'm sorry. Truly sorry. Its not my business, not at all. And not my place to be a resolver. To say that I could fill His duty, thats stupid of me. Its just... well, I guess its just that I care about you so much. But brace yourself, the change will be bigger than you or me.


*whew*

Point Number One

Degree of the moment tells us that this what we've waited for. For so long. Is it hot or is it just me? Am I shaking? You are the centrifuge and I will orbit you until we collide. But I understand your words. Your tired eyes speak no lies, but these butterflies remain to stay. This isn't a bad thing. But there is going to be so much more. So much more. The future doesn't scare me at all, and you know nothing is like before. Take my hand and we can change together. We can evolve beyond irrationality. I am going to always lose these contests, but I can't help that. I have only cared about you since the day I met you, afterall. This is just those pieces falling into place. Some isolated jigsaw puzzle that was thought to have been pushed so far aside has arisen with such life. I thought you would come with a price but you, you forgave me. So let it be known that all we are isn't heat. But there will always be a sweat broken. Does that make sense? I'm not going to make you and you aren't going to make me, but we are going to help each other. And I think that is a blessing that we have both found. You are amazing. You need to know how I feel. You need to know how I feel.

Side Effects

While thinking in circles
I'm saying your name
Once, twice...
And then I smile again.
I'm repeating words
to a song that you like.
And if only you knew
how much that isn't like me.

The butterflies have risen
Welling into my chest
Its hard to breathe...
But in a way that fits best.
I can't get your picture
right out of my head.
And if only you knew
how much that isn't like me.

Im looking forward,
and counting down.
For just a moment
on that saferground.
I'm missing every
moment that goes.
And if only you knew
how much that isn't like me.

If only.

Drinking the World

It is not okay that you think he is your savior. As a matter of fact, you will soon die because you think that he is the one who will save you. At some time you have to realize that the only one to save you is the one that expects so much out of you that change is inevitable. Change will be forced upon you. Until that time, nothing will be enough. No matter how you go about filling yourself - it too shall pass and your soul will be left empty. Empty. Stop drinking the world. (Rushton Loring)